I don’t know about you, but for me it is quite easy to have faith in small issues. To pray that my headache will go away? Easy. I can do it. To pray that my knee will heal while I know I have some serious damage down there? Not so easy.
Why is it that we trust God for the small stuff, but with the big stuff, we choose to rather put our trust in man? Why do we trust a doctor more than we trust God? I don’t have the answer. I wish I did! If I could understand this stupid behaviour, I could maybe change it!
There are people with the Gift of Faith as described in Corinthians, but for most of us, it doesn’t come naturally. There is a constant battle between our flesh and our spirits. Our spirits want to believe, our flesh battles.
Worst of all, we don’t only have to combat our own flesh when we decide to have faith; we have to combat the flesh of other people too. So often when we succeed in having faith, we listen to other people who don’t have faith and the battle becomes even harder.
I want to put my lack of faith in the box I am leaving behind in 2012 and I invite you to do the same. Life is filled with miracles, we just don’t see it. I want to live with an expectation next year instead of doubt. On my own I won’t make it, but I know God will help me.
Give me faith, that I’ll be strong,
And strength, that I’ll be faithful.